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Finally they had to leave. The owner of their room had been more than generous in allowing them to stay, but they posed a risk for him and he wanted them gone. They couldn’t blame him. On returning home to Galilee, they had spent a night fishing, comforted by the familiar work on the familiar lake, but had caught nothing. They were returning home dispirited when, as they approached the land, a man called out to them from shore to let down their nets one more time. The old Peter would have scorned to take direction from a stranger, but the new Peter merely shrugged and listlessly signaled to let down the nets.
The catch was tremendous, spurring them all to sudden action with the net. Then John, who had believed at the tomb, cried, “It is the Lord!” The miraculous catch, and the certainty in his voice, finally pierced the veil that had hung between Peter and hope. Dropping the net and pulling on his clothes, he jumped from the boat and waded to the shore, his heart in his throat. Could it be? Was it the Lord? But if it was, how could he face him?
How could he not?
He reached the shore and dragged himself out of the water, falling to his knees at Jesus’ feet, his sobs wracking his body. Jesus, looking down, loved him. All these men of His had been through a terrifying time, and he wanted to comfort and console them. Peter, He knew, had endured the worst, but in his suffering had proved himself. In knowing his weakness, he had become truly strong, ready for the tasks of leadership that lay ahead. And, yes, even for his own martyrdom. Almost. Jesus signaled him to walk a little way with him:
“Peter, do you love me?” With every repetition of question and answer, and every command to “Feed my lambs,” a quiet strength and confidence flowed into Peter. A new sense of purpose was forming. He heard the prediction of his death with solemn acceptance. Jesus looked closely at him again. Now he was ready. The final command came: